mInD oF mEnAcE

“Do what you wanna do, I don’t care anymore!”

I hear these and similiar words almost daily.  I am killing him.

I am unable to explain why.

I know he will be gone soon.

I am unable to explain why I am letting it slip away. 

 I want to get up.

 I want to live.

 I want to know why. 

 I want to scream.

I am so lost.